Everyone has good days and bad days. Days where you are just on fire and manage to get positive things done, and other days where all you can do is binge watch your favorite TV show for hours on end.
For those of us who suffer with bipolar depression; also known as manic depression; those good and bad days can change for no discernible reason and sometimes lasts for weeks or months.
This debilitating dichotomy can wreak havoc on one's life. Sometimes making normalcy and consistency impossible.
Bipolar Depression has plagued me and the lives of my loved ones for more than half my life. In brief, it has kept me from advancement in school and the workplace. Kept me from honest and safe romantic relationships, and led me down an equally sad path of alcohol and drug addiction.
I won't for a second pretend that my misfortune and bad decisions are all attributed to this disorder. But, it has been a challenge for me to separate the real from the imagined. The worst decision I have ever made has been not recognizing my afflictions and not asking for help.
I am using this blog for a number of reasons. The first and foremost being that I have always wished to help others. If someone, anyone, can read my words and change their own life, than I have succeeded. The other, is to hold myself accountable to my feelings and my actions.
I hope to explore the many facets of this disorder. And, maybe figure out some things about myself in the process.
- Darbi
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